So I went for the interview but I was confused as to whether this guy thought it was a job interview or a date. It seemed to start OK then somehow skirted around what his company actually did and what he was doing - and what I would be doing. He mainly talked about his home in Ireland, being based in London and now working in NZ for a project which so far (15 mins in) I still didn't really understand.
Then I talked about my work history for about 1 minute pulled out my CV which he had no interest in so I turned the conversation back to the project. After not getting very far but learning that he was divorced and had two grown children in NZ I turned the conversation back to the project. I said a couple of intelligent things about projections and forecasts which seemed to spark a light within and off he went actually explaining the project. I was then furnished with a detailed pitch on the project financed by a big company that I recognise. It seemed that I needed to pass a few tests before he shared this info and my CV is impressive (one part of my life that is :)).
As I had met this guy for a couple of mins through a good friend of mine, I wonder if he was serious about all of this or if he had a other intentions. My judgement is flawed due to this recovery process and I do not trust myself at all nor do I trust others I don't know. He has arranged to meet next week to give me one of the projects to cost.
I could be imagining all of this of course and early stages of new projects can be vague.
I don't trust my judgement at all - it is like I can recognise my life's a muddle. I can recognise my thought process is deeply flawed right now. All this I can see.
My first AA meeting is 8 pm on Monday. I am definitely going - a lovely lady I used to work with (she managed one of the charity shops and I managed the other) contacted me and said a little bird had told her (about my going sober) and wondered if she could take me to her meetings. I am so very grateful.